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A Day of Mourning and Remembering
May 16, 2008 | 10:13 PM PST
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Faith
My Fellow Houstonians:
Greetings from Ft. Worth, Tx. Today, we said goodbye to a very dear and loving woman in my family, my grandmother. She was 85. To see her at peace as she laid in her coffin was a very sad and disturbing event but at the same time, it was a day to celebrate her life and remember all the good times that we had while she was with us. I got a call last Saturday when I was back home from one of my closest cousins telling me that our grandmother was in ICU and not expected to make it through the weekend. Unfortunately because of work, I was not able to be there before she passed away. Mothers Day was her favorite day of the year and it would've been the day that she wanted to go home to be with the Lord but it was in his best interest that he let us spend that one last Mothers Day with us before he called her home. She passed away approximately at 12:20 a.m. early Monday morning. Everybody that could've stayed with her until she passed away was there so she didn't leave this world alone.
To my MyFoxHouston family, I thank you for allowing me to share with you this trouble time that my family and I are going through and ask for your prayers as we learn to live our lives on a daily basis without her. Granny, you will be missed for all the days of our lives and will look forward to seeing you soon.
GDubya
My day in a "poem"shell
Mar 18, 2008 | 8:16 PM PST
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Faith
My Fellow Houstonians:
For me to help cope with life's everyday turmoils that come my way, I find comfort in blogging. If you're walking down the street and pass by me, you would never notice the battles that I endure on a daily basis of wanting to take a drink. I can only hope that my triumphs and tribulations will give hope to those out there who deal with what Im going through on an everyday basis. I try not to make it a habit of "seeking unwanted attention" but I was told many years ago, whatever it takes to make it through another day sober, then do it. Today was a very challenging day for me, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. So with that said, I give you..............My Day in a "Poem"shell.
Today was a day I wanted a drink,
I could've cared less nor wanted to think
about the consequences I would later have to pay,
and thought to myself, "I'll deal with it another day."
I cried many tears of anger,
thinking thoughts that would only cause danger.
I stormed out the building and hopped in my car,
driving like a maniac in search of a near bar.
I thought to myself, "It's only today."
"A drink or two and I'll be ok."
Before I got out, I picked up the phone
and cried out in help, "I can't be alone."
I vented and screamed as my face turned pulp red,
I wanted to drink until I was dead.
Then all of the sudden a friend told me stop
and take time to remember everything you got.
It's only today that you're feeling this way,
tomorrow will come and be a new day.
My prayer for today is that I make it through,
without a drink and having friends just like you.
GDub.
Friends, this poem didn't come out of a book. It was events that actually took place today in my life. It was a very challenging day but it was a day that I chose to face everything without drinking. Thank you for allowing me to share with you...........My Day in a "Poem"shell.
My Fellow Houstonians:
Greetings and welcome to a day in my simple life. I put some good thought into this before I sat down to write this post. Today was just an average day for me. Wake up, prepare for the work day, get in my vehicle, make my usual stop at the convenience store for coffee, grab a newspaper, then onward bound to my usual route to work.
This afternoon, after I got off of work, came home, did my usual cleaning up around the house and for some reason I got into the MO of having what we use to call in the military a "GI Party"(veterans know what I'm referring to by the expression). After I threw my little GI Party, I lit an incense stick, an incense cone, a handful of scented candles and threw the "Shepard Moons" cd by Enya into my surround sound, stretched out on the couch and relaxed.
Im quite sure, many of you reading this are thinking, "ok, GDub, where are you going with this", right?
Friends, many of us live such a busy and hectic life that we barely take the time to just sit back, relax, and appreciate the smaller things in life. I look back on 2007 when I went through my ordeal w/the legal system, which happy to say, I'm halfway through my term of satisfying "Your Honor" and have successfully passed random unadultered testing along w/staying current on the fees assessed to the county monthly and am still gainfully employed along with being clean and sober. Many of you who responded to the post that I wrote a few months ago when I went public w/my incident have been a tremendous part of my success to be where I'm at today.
I apologize if I may have become a little side-tracked w/the theme of my post. I just wanted to briefly keep everybody that was concerned and supportive to me updated on my progress.
Anyway, as I was saying earlier, today I felt compelled to share a day in my simple life with everybody and hope that someone will stop to appreciate everything they have in life, big or small, short or tall, just as I have today.
This post is dedicated to Lanny Griffin and everybody at Fox26 for allowing me to share my walk of life with you all and the outpour of support that you all have given to me in my tenure of blogging here on MyFoxHouston.com.
Once again, thank you for allowing me to share "A day in my Simple Life."
God Bless,
GDub
60 Days and a Thousand Nights
Dec 9, 2007 | 9:11 AM PST
Category:
Faith
Dear Fox Friends/Family:
Sunday Morning, 7:30 a.m. wake up, go through my normal routine of starting my day off by checkin' my email, get my coffee going, and I realize what today is for me, 60 Days of 100% sobriety. I know some of you are like, "Is he going to be, like, telling his life story via blogging?" Friends/Family, I have found that whatever it takes to make it through another day w/o drinking, then so be it. When I first posted "Going Public", I was shocked as to how the outpour of support, suggestions and prayers that came rolling in from all of you. Not one word of negativity or sarcasm came from any of you and I am so thankful to have people such as yourselves a part of my daily walk in sobriety.
Another part of my morning routine which includes reading a passage from the book, "The Daily Motivator" and for some reason, todays passage hit me like a ton of bricks and it goes like this:
Saturday, December 8, 2007
In control
There are lots of temptations and there are plenty of
excuses. Keep in mind, though, that you are in control of
you.
To reach the destination you have chosen, you must follow
the path that will take you there. And while diversions and
distractions will constantly come along, remember that you
are in control of you.
Your thoughts, your words and your actions are precisely the
ones you choose. They can take you anywhere you would like
to go.
Though many things are out of your control, you are always
in control of you. You can respond, you can adjust, you can
persist and you can move in the direction of your dreams, no
matter what the outside factors may be.
You are in control of you. Your decisions in each and every
moment determine the quality of life that you live.
It is a heavy responsibility and a magnificent opportunity.
You are in control of you, and you will always go right
where your actions take you.
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"You are in control of you, and you will always go right where your actions take you." I was like, "WOW!" Could that one sentence for todays passage hit any closer to home than that?! Last night(confession time), I did infact go to a nightclub w/a couple of my neighbors and identified myself to the door person that I was designated driver for the evening and they informed me to tell the bartender so and that I would have free sodas/water(free, duh!) all night. I informed the bartender of my designated driver position and was offered a free soda right off the bat. I gave the bartender $10.00 in traditional purchase of a beverage and he told me not to worry about it(no charge) and I told him, "Thank You, keep it, Im the designated driver." Friends, thanks to people like you and others in my everyday life, I am happy to be here blogging about this milestone in my life by being able to wake up, feelin' fresh, knowing that 60 days ago, I laid to rest my drinking. I love one of the sayings that is commonly mentioned in the recovery program, "I can't promise that I won't take a drink tomorrow, I can only promise I won't drink for today." Once again, thank you for your support and words of encouragement.
Going Public
Nov 30, 2007 | 2:34 PM PST
Category:
Faith
Dear Fox Blogger Family and News Staff:
As most of you know from my previous posts, I usually begin w/my traditional "My Fellow Houstonians:"; however, on this post, I decided to go public on an issue in my life that I have been battling for many years. A while back, I wrote a blog called "Freedom" regarding my story about how a friend of mine had been arrested on a misdemeanor charge and that his freedom had been taken away from him temporarily. Well, I have a confession to make. When I wrote that post, I was writing it in the third person, someone on the outside lookin in moreless b/c that person or friend of mine that had been arrested was me. It was an incident that was alcohol related, took place at a nightclub on a Saturday night. I really won't go into the details much as to what all the reasons were for the arrest but I will say that it was alcohol related. As part of the agreement w/the courts, one of the stipulations is that I will not use any controlled substance and/or alcohol and submit to unadultered random drug screenings at my expense for the county in which my deferral is being satisfied. Reluctantly to this day, as of this post(11/30/07), I have been clean and sober for 51 days but it's an everyday challenge that I go through. Though the consumption of alcohol has been successfully avoided for this period of time, the desire lives w/me everyday. I know many of you who are reading this are thinking, "AA, that'll take care of your desire to not drink." Before anybody jumps to conclusions about me personally, I would like to say that I am gainfully employed, support myself financially w/o assistance from the government, family and/or friends. My first introduction to Alcoholics Anonymous was back when I was in high school at the age of 17 when I managed to sneak a couple of liquor bottles from house and go up the street and party w/my friends and then come home to find my father still up in his rocking chair and greeting me like in his usual "Hello Son" melonchaly(sp?) tone. A week later, I was heading out the door to go to a HS football game when my father stopped me on my way out and told me to have a seat. He began his lecture with, "Son, a little birdy in the sky told me that you came home last week intoxicated." He asked me where I got the liquor from and I tried to make up some BS story about it but he knew where the liquor was obtained from. In my defense, I became defiant b/c I wanted to know why he had the liquor to begin with. He told me, "Son, one day you're going to be old enough to make your own decisions. Until that day comes, while you're under my roof and what I say goes or else. You have two options, AA or the highway, which is it gonna be?" I was familiar w/Alcoholics Anonymous at the time b/c my step-mother was a member of ACOA(Adult Children of Alcoholic). Im sittin there thinking to myself at the time, "Man! If someone really needed the program, it was my step-mothers parents." Long story short w/o writing a book here, the years went by til this past June when I was arrested for an incident that was alcohol related. The reason why Im going public w/this is because I have pretty much done it all, AA, church, one on one counseling, etc and the desire for me to drink is still there. I was diagnosed w/high blood pressure back in May of this year after learning that my BP was 167/93 at a make shift clinic at the local Walmart where I frequent where the technician administering the test told me that I needed to go see a doctor. My road to recovery is and has been rocky for the past 51 days of sobriety but I know that all it takes is one drink not only to ruin my tracking days but risk the chances of jeopardizing my deferral, my career and everything that I have worked so hard for. Thanks for your time in reading this my fellow Houstonians and friends.
